Archive for January, 2009


Posted: 2009/01/19 in christianity, joy, sin
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Restore to me the joy of Your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit.”  Psalm 51:12


the restoration of God is His overwhelming joy that He places on the hearts of His children.  

Psalm 51 finds David after his lustful desire of Bathsheba that lead to adultery, deception, and murder.  his cry to God was to restore to him the joy of God’s salvation.  David knew firsthand the result of sin, forfeiting the joy that God offers in His salvation for his selfish pleasures.  David forfeited the glory of the immortal God for temporal satisfaction.

i join in Davids cry this morning as I have a simple taste again of the joy of God’s salvation.  it’s amazing how fleeting this joy is in the presence of sin.  Habakkuk 1:13, a holy God with holy eyes can not look upon my wrong.  i rest in the promise that ‘blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.’  my sin of laziness, lack 0f self control, anger, and complacency (in my nature) overwhelms my heart but the joy i taste after spending a morning in the presence of God, confessing my weakness, brings back the sweet taste of this joy.  how dangerous it is when i stray into my own strength.  

thank you God for sanctification.  thank you God for overwhelming me with your grace and bringing back to the joy that is Your’s in salvation.  

may i constantly mourn my sin that separates me from my God so that His strength may comfort me.  may I never loose sight of this truth.  may i fight to purse Him daily (oh because it is a fight within me) and beg Him to bring me back to the joy that I find in His salvation.


Haiti, the new world

Posted: 2009/01/15 in haiti
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i have been reading a ton about the history of Haiti and how it got to be where it is today.  for some this may be boring (like to my wife) but it’s necessary for me to write about it.  

do you remember the guy we learned about in american history, that small figure named Christopher Columbus?  remember, “in fourteen hundred and ninety-two columbus sailed the ocean blue.”  on his first voyage across the ocean he hit the Bahamas, Cuba, and Hispaniola (modern day Haiti and the Dominican Republic).  it’s amazing to me the things i tuned out while in school growing up.  

he first hit Haiti at Môle Saint-Nicolason on December 5th, 1492.  this is where Columbus first encountered the TaínoArawaks, the amerindians the inhabited the Bahamas, Cuba, and Hispaniola.  

19 days later Columbus claimed Haiti for Spain.  he left 39 men to establish the settlement of La Navidad located in the present city of Cap-Haitien as he left back to Spain to report his finding.  


this was just the beginning…



Austen, my oldest, is in that phase of his life where everything that he does…that we praise… he says, “i want to be a (fill in the blank) when i grow up.”  it’s hard to express the feelings that i get when i hear my son dream.  it’s joyful.  i have almost forgot what it is to dream. i encourage people to dream all the time but do i still dream?  maybe!

 Austen, pursue Christ with your whole heart, relentlessly…and dream buddy.  God has gifted you and may your sin never quench that.  never forget that you are evil at the core but Christ righteousness will make you righteous everyday.  He will fill you with joy as you pursue Him and His love will allow to do thing that you never thought were possible.  love Him my son!  i love you forever…for always…my little boy you’ll be!


Posted: 2009/01/11 in christianity, Landon
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why don’t we cry more?

this was a question i pondered as i laid in bed with my three year old as he fought back tears after i sent him to naps.  we laid there for a while, then in the saddest whisper i heard, “you said i could play video games.”  i had forgotten that i told him that but it was too late.  that didn’t even begin to heal his broken heart.

seriously, that kid can cry at the drop of a hat.  

as i was pondering my deep question as i held an angry kid…something  profound hit me!  are you ready for this.

i think we don’t cry because as we get older are hearts are connected to less. 

deep, i know!

seriously though, why did Landon cry?  he cried because because his heart was connected to playing video games.  his heart was crushed.  it seems his heart is connected to a lot of things as fighting tears are a part of our normal day.

to say that my heart is not connected to anything other than my wife and my kids is absurd.  i could list numerous things i feel my heart is connected to.  but what level am i connected to it.  let’s use Haiti for example.  it’s fresh in my mind.  i truly feel a connection to the children of Haiti.  there are countless deaths a year caused by lack of food/nutrition.  it is ridicules that anyone should suffer that way…in a world with our resources.  i get sad at this fact.  but it’s mostly a fleeting sadness.  it’s a genuine sadness but immature.  

are we less connected to things than we thought?  are we more in love with the idea of being broken then actually being broken?  

maybe Landons tear say more about him then I ever thought.  maybe it’s a glance into his heart.  maybe my lack of tears say more about me!  a glance into the depth of my heart (or lack of).  


God, i beg you to keep Landon’s heart and mature it.  do not allow me to break his spirit for the sake of “making him into a man.”  help me to discipline a rebellious heart and nurture a gentle spirit.  make him into a man after your heart.  Father, give me a broken heart.  i can not be “connected” to everything but i beg you to allow me to be deeply connected to the things to you place on my heart.  do not allow me to be lazy or selfish with my heart.  grant me the discipline and passion to be diligent with my “free time.”

Stacy’s going to Haiti

Posted: 2009/01/07 in haiti
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2009 is here and Stacy is headed to Haiti in March.  dang we are excited for this trip.  Haiti has been on our hearts for a while and God is faithful in getting us there.  it seemed impossible 6 months ago but here we are.  because of the financial gifts given to us over Christmas her trip is paid for.  thanks mom, linda, and papa.  

in the posts to come i will write all about Haiti and fill those of you in who want to know.  as i further my studies on this country i will fill all of you in.  

let’s begin the journey…